100th post!

What better way to celebrate my 100th post by sharing some amazing news!

 MY SISTER'S HAVING A BABY GIRL!!!

I am super excited! I can't believe it!! A baby girl of my very own! I thought for sure it was going to be a boy.. but I prayed and hoped and wished for a girl!!!!

Oh my dearest little Ellie, you'r only the size of a small mango; and have no idea how much you're loved. I can not wait to meet you!

It's Booked!!

My vacation is booked!! after 2.5 years of being married I finally caved and we're going on our honeymoon! haha, I told Blake if I ever got below 300 lbs that I would go somewhere with him, (some where tropical) So now Im way below that goal, I figured why not!?!?!?

So, we're going to Cuba! and we're leaving January 29th!! :) I am kinda super excited! I am not sure if it's because I have never been on an airplane.. or the fact that I have bought 3 new dresses! or because it's a week of doing nothing but laying on a beach drinking pina coldas!!!

We're staying at Barcelo Cayo Santa Maria Beach Resort 

hurt

Well...

the other day Blake and I were having a disagreement about something, ... I don't even remember.. upon reflecting on the past which I find is a super way to add fuel to the already raging fire... I probably wasn't nice.. because I enjoy a good heated argument once in a while.. well.. I like what happens after... :-O
this time was different.. he told me before I started loosing the weight he was not attracted to me and sometimes embarrassed to go out with me.. Seriously? fuck you buddy... fung goo....

I was just really hurt... and it's still bothering me even though he's still apologizing for it, and saying he shouldn't have told me... however... its over...  but sometimes words cut you a little deeper then you had thought.

knowing me, knowing you, January

1. Okay so you have $5 million to spend in five days and you can't spend it on yourself or your family. What do you spend it on?


I would make a dog farm, for unwanted doggies to live on and be happy and hire great people to take care of them.


or 


donate it to make a wish


2. What's your favourite type of food?


I like sweets, to bad that I can't eat them anymore or else I get sicker then a mo-fo.  I like spaghetti! 


3. What is the best concert you've ever attended?


I went to see Shania Twain with my dad back when she was huge!! it was the best time ever!!


4. What sports do you like?

no sports. 

5. Who is your favourite cartoon character of all time?


Cinderella!

House Rules.

At the beginning of the year ( ..  I know we're only 11 days in..) one of my goals was to read all my books before I bought any new ones, well... I have finished my first one.

 House Rules - I have to tell you, I couldn't put it down, It was a big book for me to tackle, however like My Sister's Keeper it was written with different characters rather then a typical narrator  or from one persons perspective.

I have a few more of her books that I have yet to read, So I think I will start another one soon!!

Hello 2011!

Well, this year I do have a few goals that I would like to adhere too! They're not that ambitious so the likely hood of failing at them will not cause any loss of sleep! :) hehehe!!!

1) I would like to loose at least 65 more lbs before July, 85 lbs before December.
2) I have at least 10 books that I have bought and haven't even started, so I would like to read all the books I have before buying any new ones.
3) taking care of myself - I use to go for pedicures once a month and I am not sure why I stopped, however ... it's so nice to go and have your feet rubbed and just relax... to take off my make up before bed... to moisturize everyday, to get my eye lashes tinted every 6 weeks and to get my eye brows done aswell!
4) to go see a movie once a week, I was doing this in the summer with some of my friends, and let me tell you, it's nice to get outta the house and its nice to get outta the house once a week!!
5) to go on a trip ( we're planning one, however... I always seem to get outta it somehow! )

really, that's it.... that's all I got!! :) most of them are for me.. and about taking care of me, which I really didn't care about before, but now I realise that I have been given a "second" chance and I want to make the best of it! So little things that I can do to make ME feel better are worth doing, because we live once! :)